If I where a boy
Maybe I would understand
Why it’s like that
You’re acting like an ass
But if you where a girl
Maybe you would understand
Why I’m so hurt
By your words and...
All the things that you say

Makes me think that you
Change you’r mind like a girl
Change her clothes....
Maybe you do understand? Haha....

Your’re sweet and then tough
We fight and break up
We kiss and make up
Do you think I want it like that?

You’re dumb
Cuz you let me go!
Cuz you and me
Where ment to be
Don’t you see
You don’t get to choose
You’ll lose
But you better choose
Who’s shoes you wanna be in

Try mine and you’ll find
Just how it hurts
What if I did that to you
How would it make you feel?
Would you be hurt like me
Or just the same unsensitve you

Maybe you’re right
You’re not the guy for me!

Cuz I’m tired of this
Game we play
Why wont you stop
And be real just for once
Tell me how you feel for me
And then be gone!
Before I fall apart

Cuz my heart
Is not a toy
It’ll easely break
Maybe I should break Yours
So that you would know
How it feels to be me
Right now...

So wont you please
Be a little bit careful
With what you say and do!
So I won’t feel so hurt

Like a fool
I fell for you
Noticing you can’t say yes or no
You say no to be
But yes to me
Tell me what you want
Me or my body

Cuz it’s a packagedeal
Not the other without
It’s all or nothing!
Not the other without
I should say
But instead
I’m weak
For your speak
So don’t say anything
Just go!

I may forgett
Over time
But my heart
Won’t ...
It fell apart
And can’t be fixed
tell me it’s just a trick
of my mind
to make me blind
so that I wont see
you for real
maybe you’re scared
to commit
or is it just to me?

Tell me whats wrong
And we’ll see
If it can be fixed
Don’t leave me like this
Inbetween hot and cold
With neither yes or no
Tell me please
Or I wont be pleased
But don’t say no
Thats wrong !
You’re so fine
Please be mine
It’s all I ever wish for!

Dark FairyTales
it’s dark and I’m running,
just running with the animals
the past is hunting us, we can not escape the truth
cuz the future have hunted us down....to the end of the world
in our pregnant mind, the burden is just to heavy for our sacred hearts
in our throats the fear bubbels and screams
to get out -get reveng
I’m scratching my sharp fingernails painted with poison
’til I bleed......
Our bodys moving mechanical...like we had a goal
I do not understand why we are running, I don’t remember!
Soon I’ve taken my last breath
I’ll get down on my limping knees
and prey...under a bloody moon
it will drip-drop into my eyeballs, as they’ll turn red...
the lust of murder....the hunger of blood
will wake up in me....
oh mr Rabbit with his bloody theeth...and his dirty litte christmas hat...
I saw my reflection in a black lake of blood
and I’m mr Rabbit, eating up all the other creaturers in the forest...
of the wildness.....

in the woods, I met a naked woman
she was sitting next to the black lake of blood
brushing her golden hair.....
she told me to look deep into my own reflection
what would I see??....I asked
and with a sound of grace she whispers....
she pushed me into the water...
and I drown within myself.....’til I fell down through the devils rooth

He torted me and drank my blood
he and his littel demons beat me until their was nothing left to beat
Longed for death, begged for mercy
the past took over my mind....the future my mutilated body

As I grow older and my flesh was full of worms and spinders
feasting on my rottening blood
each day, I’m losing my mind
for better or worse.....pieces of my life
that never should have been forgotten , where lost...

My cat...
Is special
his everything to me
My cat....
Is crazy
his everything I’ve
My cat..
Is lazy
his everything I’m

When he falls to the flour
Shaking and screaming
I count to four...
1,2,3,4....
he stops.
My cat...
Is scary
I’ll be there anyway
My cat..
Is smelly
I’ll pet him anyway
My cat
Is scabby
I’ll love him anyway
smelly cat, smelly cat...
what should I do?
feeding you with chease and pills
hopening it will make a change


// Ariina I Love you
don't die on me now!

it’s so unreal
like a bad dream
hoping I’ll wake up
.......and see.....

this was only a dream
the days turns into weeks
as the time flys by
my heart bleeds....

must take action
to hold you once again
I want’s the chanse to be lied to again...

my body is acking for just one kiss!!!

I’ve lost myself
drowning in my own pain!
wish you were here
to pull me upp
holding me once again
so I won’t bleed......anymore

sitting by myself
woundering were you are
sitting alone in the dark
waiting for you to call....
A bad dream that never ends
Sitting on the bed
Waiting.....
To be rescued by a whispher
But the phone remains quiet
And nothing but my silent suffocation
Hears through out the night

By the hearts desire
My wishes beats stronger
For every beat of my heart

This heart shaped box inside the human mind
Controls my addictions
My longing for the touch of your heart

make my soul shiver in the coldness by your breath
whisper your affection to my sencses
give me a reason not to fall
for your embracse of my essence

and it’s hurting inside
the heart is bleeding love songs
stop me before I die

no no I’m not gonna stop
let this flame burse into a fire
it may burn until the end
like a ciggaret
the world wont stop spinn around any way
it’s just the way it is
when your mind has been infected by romance